SO back from the dr. my last 4 week appointment. As I started this journey my goal was to stay under the 200lb mark... well ladies and gents, sadly today that dream was deflated when the scale read 200.5 lbs.... so how did i drowned my sorrows you ask, by eat some nachos! yes, before 11 am. HA

On another note... i am in a practice that has 7 docs... the only woman i was meeting today. With great anticpation i was hoping she would be cool. SHE SUCKED!

I asked her about when we would talk or chart my birth wishes, like EPIDURAL and who was in the room etc.... she said i needed to go to a birthing class to learn about my options.. SISTER i know my options, i want to express my wishes.. she had no time for me.

THEN i said something about Vara being big, she said you are tall you can deal with it. UMM ok. But she then saw my chart and noticed my thyroid issues and kept saying I should be happy if Vara is big, better than a baby that has retardation.. HELLO!! wouldn't anyone aggree with that. I just want to know how she will come out with out killing me! and what we do if she gets stuck etc. I don't wish for retardation... does anyone? does that really need to be said?

Then i finally tell her my cousin had an 11lb baby and it broke her pelvis, she said you mean her tailbone... NO that isn't what i said... her pelvis, and I don't want that ok! YEESH... so much for female bonding!

So any advice.... what if she is who delivers Vara... i need a funny dr. someone that will help me get through it, and engage me etc... not robo doc. UGH