SVJ –
This time 6 years ago I was waiting for you to arrive. I waited and waited and waited. About 3 in the morning, I got up and realized
that you were finally ready to come out.
That day, and everyday after have been a gift to me. You have always
been a sweet girl; smiling, and happy, and social. You have overcome some
obstacles, and you have always made me want to do more for you. To be the mom
that you can be proud of, to be the person you want to be friends with when you
get older.
At 1 you has a seizure from a fever. Cat was your first word
out loud, more was your first word in sign language. At 18 months you stood up,
and walked across the room after not trying at all for months and months. At 3 you got your first stiches and 6 months
later you matched it on the other side… (both eyebrows). You are always an
outside girl, that drinks water over juice and wants to know what is healthy.
But you also LOVE a drive through mainly for the fruit smoothies.
You talk to yourself. In the shower, in the mirror, in the
bathroom… anywhere. You are very full of imagination and you surprise me every
day with the stories you create. You just saw rise of the guardians, and in the
shower last night you talked about how you believe in them all, but not the
boogie man. You were / are SO sweet Vara, and you make me a better person.
You call my chubby and say I am fat….. when you are older
you will know how amazingly hurtful that was for me. But when I ask you why,
you never know what you say it, but I think you just want me to be healthy. So
I am continuing to try to be a better example for you. When you are older and read this, I was 185
-190lbs, and wear a size 14/16. I don't know how tall you will be or how much
you will weigh, but I pray you are happy because you beauty inside is so much
greater.
You love your Pinky. She has lived with us since you were
about 3. She has seen you go from Paci and Diapers to a Kindergartener. You
speak Greek with her now and have your routine when I am away. I travel about 9 days a month, and it is ok
with you now. I write on the mirror for you to erase each day when I am gone.
It helps you know when I am going to be back…. We talk in sleeps… how many
sleeps!
You sleep with me almost every night, and often take up the
WHOLE bed. You love Bob Dole the cat, Vidia the Dog and we watch GG too. You are a caring girl that wants a puppy or
kitten.
You wear a 6x pants, and Medium Top. You are transitioning
out of dresses and tend to look to wear jeans, brown boots from target that
have “jewels” on them. This year you
also cut your own bangs! You were a
flower girl in Kristina Kesels Wedding in Denver. Jenni Kesel has declared you
her younger sister.
You fell at the hot air balloon festival and got a scar on
your nose. I had to pull a piece of glass from it and there was a lot of blood.
Pinky fixed you up, but you now complain you have a crinkle nose. I am sorry that happened. But you were VERY
brave.
Josh Greene and you play all the time and have for years
now. I am so happy that you are making friends for life. Ria Aggarwal was your
first play date. You went up to her mom and gave her my cell number… you were
so proud to know it! I was so proud of you too.
You try to not get your name on the board, but informed me
it doesn't count unless you get a check! Mrs. Davis is your teacher and you
have the same birthday.
Your Dad is now in Columbia SC and dating a woman names
Stephanie. She has two children Ava -4 and Landon- who just turned 7 this month
too. You have spent two weekends with them and seem to have done well. You did
hit Ava once you admitted. She held your hand when you were at the dentist.
Stephanie works there, and sadly.. you have a cavity to get filled.
Vara James… I am not sure there are words to express to you
how much I love, care for and cherish you. You are my angel from God and my
reason for so many things. I am eternally grateful for ALL you do, will do and
have done for your mommy.
Happy 6th Birthday –
I love you-
